Wednesday, November 19, 2008

This Joy I feel

How would you feel if the person you love tell you this...

"the only thing that you have to keep in mind is that we are together and our love will last forever"

Won't that light up your face? Won't that touch your heart?

Hmmm, ala lang! ! hehe

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Changes in My Life

I was not so happy being lonely living without you
So I prayed so hard for your love in my heart I needed you
Then I looked up in the sky and I'm thinking why oh why,
These are all the many changes in my life
After all the caring and the laughter, no one is like you
I am not a preacher with a sermon, I'm so in love with you
`Cause to live without your love like the sun that shines above
Is the magic of the changes in my life
And Ill never forget your love
You and I we were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes in my life
Listen to these words I want to give you on our love so true
Dont forget I love you and I need you,
Ill always be with you
So just looked up in the sky and youll find out why oh why
These are all the many changes in my life
And Ill never forget your love
You and I we were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life
(Instrumental)
And Ill never forget your love
You and I we were meant to be
Sweet as rain falling from the sky
You and I
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes
These are all the many changes in my life.

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After watching Singing Bee, I fell in love with this song, not because a lot of changes were happening in my life then but I just really like the song.

Only after learning some of the lyrics, did I realize that a lot of changes are really happening in my life.

Sadly, I have not scrapped for weeks now but there are valid reasons so that makes it all okay. I can scrap some other time when everything is okay already.

Weeks back, I planned for a three-straight-days rest. On my first day of rest, Alex got sick and all that she wanted beside her was "Mommy!" I guess all mother would agree, it is 50X the hurt when you see your kid sick. I am glad that at her age, she can already tell me which part of her body is hurting. She is the most lovely patient for she won't mind taking all the medicine you would ask her to take. On all three days, I was attending to her 24 hours. She can't sleep well because of her cough and when she wakes up she can't open her eyes because of her bacterial conjunctivitis. But she is okay now. Better than ever, she even gained some pounds actually. :)

Talking about changes, from being a vampire, I am now a morning person. I need to sleep early everyday because I need to wake up at 245 AM for my shift starts at 415 AM and our shuttle service is picking me up at 34o AM. It is really a big change in my schedule, routine and eating habits. I need not eat 24 hours everyday for I need not be awake the whole day and whole night. Some of my officemates already noticed a few pounds of me are gone. Only a few though, really few. Lol. I actually cried so hard when I knew I will be transferred to the AM shift and I cant say NO. But all is well in the AM shift, I realized. I can be in our house on the night of December 24 and 31. Alex will not be without a parent on Christmas and New Year's Eve unlike last year.

The biggest change, I can say that had really impacted my personal life lately is a ghost in the past who got back to make me feel what I feel today. But I am stronger I can say. Even my relationship with God. At the lowest point in my life, God made me strong and helped me got back on my feet. I have been here in earth for the last 26 years and it is now that I realized the true power of prayers.

Oh I also got a hair cut and I just feel good about it! I felt last the I lost five years of my age (because I feel like 36 rather than 26, it feels better to be 31! hehe)

With all the changes in our life, I realized you just need to always look on the brighter side of things, if not, you can't really move on.